The start of something new

A day to remember. The day that we took back our O-levels results.. I'm telling you, it's scary.. i was intending to stone my way through the whole thing.. but i couldn't.. i was practically shaking when i entered the hall. Saw my form teacher, the great Mdm Leow.. haha.. unbelievable.. i didn't dare look at her for i was afriad i'd see some reaction that may worry me..! Who knew, she came over and patted me on my sholder, hard.. saying.. "You got an A for chem!" and followed by chuckles.. lol.. i got a shock.. but at that point of time, i seriously could not react to her words.. Why? not sure.. too nervous.. so i just said "oh" and nodded afew times before taking my place in the hall.. in the end, everything turned out fine.. just that i'm not very satisfied with my grades.. it's just human nature.. the more you think about it, the lousier u feel... =) i get that all the time.. All the time..

Ever wondered what you would wanna do when u grow up? i'm not sure man.. seriously.. Some are already thinking.. Oh, i aspire to be..... i'm gonna study.......... Yea, i'm a lost sheep now then.. darn..

Friends are very complicating.. sometimes don't u just wish u can read minds? lol.. personally, i'm very self consious.. i really take into consideration as to what others think about me.. it's a horrible feeling.. like.. oh my.. what's he/she thinking abt me?? what does the look that they're giving me mean??? Obviously I want my friends to feel close to me.. able to talk abt anything.. i'm feeling a very strong bond lately with one of them.. like.. wow.. okay.. lol.. we think the same thing, almost able to be able to complete each other's sentence, get the same result.. okay.. now that's dejavu.. lol.. we both feel it.. so it's like.. wierd.. but i like it.. cos friendship is something i treasure.. ALOT. If a friend comes to me, telling me that he/she is scared, happy or whatever, wants a hug, i'll be all to happy to provide them with the comfort.. I felt it today.. i hugged friends.. haha.. the one that really took me aback was this guy friend of mine.. haha.. wow.. he was like.. calling my name, asking me what my results were.. we exchanged info, and he was so happy with his results, i just extended my hands for a hug,(it's reflex action) an he just picked me up in a warm hug!! haha.. okok... he's real tall i must add.. almost choked me to death! haha.. and all my friends i hugged, or smiled at or whatever.. i'm really happy i've got this bunch of friends.. they may not really take me as their friend.. as in close friend, but i do.. so yea.. =)

So now all of us, in my year, will be starting a new phase of education life.. JC, Poly, MI, ITE.. whatever it is, it'll all be a whole new journey again.. time to continue where we stopped at.. Friends will be separated.. people will change... more hardworking... slack? who cares.. just take control of your life.. studies are a priority now.. nth else.. so.. no distractions pls..

So i say.. it's the start of something new.. it's a nice song.. listen to it sometime..

walking on in life... looking ahead..
cheers..
~*glads*~