Happy happy!

Haha!! I managed to sign in! like.. oh my goodness.. i'm so dumb!!! retard.. haha... so happy!!! lol.. i'm mad..

Yea, i went to Ben's church yesterday for dinner.. Valentine's day dinner.. I had alot of fun.. really enjoyed myself.. mostly because i spent time with some friends i missed so much from Dunearn.. =D Spending time with them again made me really happy and has made me miss them more.. The theme for the dinner was retro.. i bought everything specially for the dinner as i wanted to give Ben 'face'.. lol.. but when i went there, i found out that i was the only one dressed up so much! ok.. not so much.. just that i actually bothered to buy the dress.. faints.. i do like it though.. but i seriously thought i looked like a hopelessly inflated fishball!! huge belt at my waist to add on.. oh my.. disaster.. and to think i actually won best dressed.. i voted for this guy.. Eugene.. He looked so adorable!!! in shorts and really long socks.. lol.. with a bow tie too! haha.. So cute..

I was the only female among the friends.. there were Ben, Dan, Jet, Yingy, Jing, Kiro and John.. lol.. ALL GUYS.... I was wondering why on earth did i go to this dinner! Things are always awkward to a certain extent when i'm the only girl.. But what can i say, they are my close friends.. at least.. that's what i feel.. haha.. yea.. oh! and Dan, he is one... funny guy.. okay.. they're all funny.. but i was sitting with Jet and Dan during dinner.. haha.. Jet was the more serious one.. as usual.. while Dan was the.. umm.. more retarded one.. lol! in a cute way! He says all sorts of stuff that makes u crack up!! nah, i should call him.. Lame.. lol.. Nice guy.. doesn't make sense most of the time.. but that's what makes him adorable!! :D

For Jet, he is the more composed guy.. things tend to be more serious around him.. A good friend too.. well... to me at least.. More of a listener... very quiet.. doesn't talk much.. but when he talks, sometimes he just seem to make too much sense!!! haha.. It tickles me all the time.. how he make sense and i don't.. We'll start debating on how his logic works.. haha.. it'll be never-ending actually.. but the idiotic thing is.. i know I make ZERO SENSE.. still, i just wanna argue back..!! haha... fun!

Ben.. what can i say.. he's born to make people around him laugh..(clown!! =X) funny faces.. funny actions.. i wonder if he gets tired sometimes.. lol.. okay.. but.... as usual.. he never fails to make me laugh... I, for one, am an extremely lame person.. so sometimes he can't stand me.. lol.. he'll be so totally "blown away" by what i've got to say.. but that's the sorta conversations we have.. lol.. And his dad's able to remember me!!!!!!! haha.. so sweet right?!?!?!?! =D i know.. lame.

Ying sheng aka yingy.. lol.. i don't talk much to him.. talk to him and the answers u get back is.. huh, hmm, oh, ah, i see.. lol.. somewhere there.. :D did i mention he's very soft?? lol.. to me he is..! i'm serious.. u can hardly hear him.. for me. lol.. he went up to sing yesterday.. the songs "everlasting" and "complete".. meaningful songs.. i love them.. but as i said, he's soft.. i couldnt really hear him..! but clap clap at his guts to perform!!! =D

the other guys.. lol. i'm not that close to them.. all Ben's friends.. never really talked to them until yesterday.. except for Jing.. it's his birhtday today!!! lol.. but as i've said, not that close.. but i think they shld be nice ppl too! they seemed so yesterday! haha.. ^_^

Oh my goodness.... i love my friends.. i love them sooooo much i can just keep going on and on about them.. so many more.. but i'll just continue next time..

For the females.. lol.. Lei, Wen, Sham etc etc!!!! i love them to bits too!!! For Lei, i'm telling you, that day before we got back our results, she called me and said she needed and wanted me to be there beside her the next day when we're gonna take back our results, because she'll be really scared and would need my hug, i'm seriously telling you.. My heart melted.. i was touched.. immensely!!! i couldnt really believe it u know.. lol.. i felt a glow of happiness in me.. it's indescribable.. it's because i don't hear her saying these things to me b4!!!

I wanna sum it all up now.. One sentence.. I love.. LOVE my friends.. everyone of them....... they mean the world to me.. Serious..

Rock on and never change...
~*Glads*~

The start of something new

A day to remember. The day that we took back our O-levels results.. I'm telling you, it's scary.. i was intending to stone my way through the whole thing.. but i couldn't.. i was practically shaking when i entered the hall. Saw my form teacher, the great Mdm Leow.. haha.. unbelievable.. i didn't dare look at her for i was afriad i'd see some reaction that may worry me..! Who knew, she came over and patted me on my sholder, hard.. saying.. "You got an A for chem!" and followed by chuckles.. lol.. i got a shock.. but at that point of time, i seriously could not react to her words.. Why? not sure.. too nervous.. so i just said "oh" and nodded afew times before taking my place in the hall.. in the end, everything turned out fine.. just that i'm not very satisfied with my grades.. it's just human nature.. the more you think about it, the lousier u feel... =) i get that all the time.. All the time..

Ever wondered what you would wanna do when u grow up? i'm not sure man.. seriously.. Some are already thinking.. Oh, i aspire to be..... i'm gonna study.......... Yea, i'm a lost sheep now then.. darn..

Friends are very complicating.. sometimes don't u just wish u can read minds? lol.. personally, i'm very self consious.. i really take into consideration as to what others think about me.. it's a horrible feeling.. like.. oh my.. what's he/she thinking abt me?? what does the look that they're giving me mean??? Obviously I want my friends to feel close to me.. able to talk abt anything.. i'm feeling a very strong bond lately with one of them.. like.. wow.. okay.. lol.. we think the same thing, almost able to be able to complete each other's sentence, get the same result.. okay.. now that's dejavu.. lol.. we both feel it.. so it's like.. wierd.. but i like it.. cos friendship is something i treasure.. ALOT. If a friend comes to me, telling me that he/she is scared, happy or whatever, wants a hug, i'll be all to happy to provide them with the comfort.. I felt it today.. i hugged friends.. haha.. the one that really took me aback was this guy friend of mine.. haha.. wow.. he was like.. calling my name, asking me what my results were.. we exchanged info, and he was so happy with his results, i just extended my hands for a hug,(it's reflex action) an he just picked me up in a warm hug!! haha.. okok... he's real tall i must add.. almost choked me to death! haha.. and all my friends i hugged, or smiled at or whatever.. i'm really happy i've got this bunch of friends.. they may not really take me as their friend.. as in close friend, but i do.. so yea.. =)

So now all of us, in my year, will be starting a new phase of education life.. JC, Poly, MI, ITE.. whatever it is, it'll all be a whole new journey again.. time to continue where we stopped at.. Friends will be separated.. people will change... more hardworking... slack? who cares.. just take control of your life.. studies are a priority now.. nth else.. so.. no distractions pls..

So i say.. it's the start of something new.. it's a nice song.. listen to it sometime..

walking on in life... looking ahead..
cheers..
~*glads*~